If I speak in the languages of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 1 Corinthians 13:1
My love for song started when I was just 3 years old with renditions of Mango Groove’s Special star into a hairbrush microphone. My mom was my ever-appreciating audience member ready to give the standing ovation that every budding young singer craves. As I grew older I realized the enchantment of song and entertainment. The holiday shows that my cousins and I put on brought the entire family together (as well as earned us money for ice-cream and sherbet.) Although rehearsals were a little stressful, we always had fun and we always knew what joy we would see in the eyes of our family.
It’s no wonder that my school career was filled with choir, and solos, plays and shows. A passion for music and song grew in my heart, though-out my primary school and high school careers, even more so when moving from Durban to Cape Town, swapping Ms Wendy Mattson to Ms Annette Moss as singing teachers, and growing from a girl into a women. The music burned ever brighter.
Deciding to study at AFDA after graduating from Rustenburg High school for girls, was a bold and risky decision; surely a straight A student would have better prospects than “the arts.” But my heart was captivated. Student days were not easy. Late nights, little sleep and bad eating habits were but a small price to pay for “my Art.”
Even after graduating, working with David Kramer, touring the world with Grease, recording my debut album, and singing in my church worship band there was an inexplicable passion and drive trusting me forward. Was it pushing the limits of excellence? Was it the trill of an audience? Was it for appreciation? It was all of those things but not in the way that you (or I) would expect. The reason, I discovered, goes further than human accolades and affirmation. In me burns a passion for the One who gave me every talent I possess. I sing with excellence to Glorify Him, the Author of the music in my heart. I perform for the audience of One and for the privilege that one day He will say the same of me as he did of His Son, Jesus, “This is my daughter in whom I am well pleased.”
More so I want my life to be music to His ears. I could have all the gifting in the world, but if I do not have love for my God and his people, then my life is just noise.
If I do not see the need around me, and partner with Him to heal what’s broken here on earth, then my life is a resounding din. I would like to stand at my life’s end at the foot of my creator with life fragrant with music. Not with just the song of my lips but the song of my life.